Just Thinking out loud

Welcome back one and all to the show

So exams are done, and now a new semester is upon us. What will this bring? Only time will tell I suppose, but I have had a lot on my mind during the month...ish long absence from the blog. A lot of it is really simplistic, some of it depressing, some of it really obvious, some of it strange.. Readers will find out what I mean during the next couple of posts.  Just remember that I'm not trying to bum anyone out, I'm Not trying to be dramatic I'm just thinking out loud. So lets jump right in shall we?

Listen up... are you listening? are you just letting it enter one ear and sending it out the next? there is a difference between Hearing something, and Listening to something... I don't think that people know this difference. I just don't understand why... its not that complicated. Actually care about what someone is saying... because if they are making the effort to talk to you, and not just speak at you, the least you could do is listen, and care. this is another thing... do people know the difference between Talking to someone, and Speaking at someone? I find that this is what separates the music that really impacts people individually and the music that people just like. everyone has that one song that they love... well you should anyways... and for me its basically any Linkin Park song. but things have changed a lot with them. their first 2 albums (incredible btw) are really focused on heavy singing, riffs, rhythm, and more. but their recent 2 albums (also incredible btw) are much different in the means in which they present this style... They have matured and have learned how to sing to people, not at them. think about that... its hard to explain, but i hope you know the difference. this is the same context as listening to someone, and hearing someone, and talking to someone, or speaking at them.  If someone is making the effort tot talk to you, please listen and don't just hear them. respect their effort, and care about what they are saying... this doesn't have to apply to everything now, because not everything needs to be intently listened to, such as jokes with friends or whatever where your just having fun and stuff like that... but there is a time for everything. what sparked this topic in my head was a simple situation that i have seen far too often, but never really saw any meaning in it. here's a scenario that i was placed in. I was out for brunch with my Dad after an early work shift (like 7 freaking am) and beside us was this couple... the girl seemed like she was talking to him, seriously, expecting him to weigh in on her situation and give his support and care... and actually listen... this wasn't happening. the guy was on his phone, looking all around the room, genuinely not giving a ****, and giving one word responses like "yeah" or "ok" or "sure"... what was this dude's problem. across the table from him, was his gorgeous girlfriend making the effort to talk to him and spend time with him and care for him... he didn't give 2 ****s. Then it hit me... I thought to myself "I have seen this way too many times." I know that its a really dumb, simple concept, but its The little things that give you away. the big things in life aren't worth it. it's those small moments of awesomeness or sorrow that people remember and carry with them throughout life. it shapes who you are... in my opinion of course. I don't even know what to say about that guy, but I won't judge.... he could have been tired or not really interested in her anymore or something, but in general ive seen this far too much.. its a grotesque trend that i keep seeing... and this was at the beginning of January. I have seen this at least 3 more times after that, and countless times before. all in all, what i am trying to get at is listen to people, don't just hear them. talk to people, not at them. if someone is making the effort to talk to you, listen, respect, and care. that's all. say what you wish about me or this, but this is what I stand by.
this also goes with texting as well. pet peve of me and a lot of other people i know... don't you hate it when you send a long text and you get like 3 words back? same thing as above. effort made but not respected by the opposite. and when people take forever to respond ( i know people might be busy, but nevertheless it still sucks) and you respond much faster only to get a response 3 hours later... or maybe not at all... and that combined with the 3 word response... just hurts. again, just a text and people have shit to do but jumping out of a window and landing on a flat pillow won't help much.

I have at least another topic really forefront in my head right now, but I need some time to let it settle if you know what I mean. Maybe after some sleep I can process what I am thinking right now. Thank you for reading, and hopefully listening.

the song of the day has got to be the song I have been listening to like mad over the break and during exams. A Linkin Park song... an unreleased song that was supposed to go on their debut album Hybrid Theory but was not put on due to artistic difference from the rest of the album... I really hope that they officially release this song on one of their albums just as a bonus track or something.. because it is truly something special. it captures the essence of loneliness and winter perfectly... i just picture a dark, winter night where the snow is falling gracefully, slowly, yet heavily. i don't know, just me i guess. here it is, and i hope you like it
Linkin Park: My December (unreleased)

Thank you for reading... the new year will hold a lot of surprises, disappointments, and most likely... only a sprinkle of success... but thats all you need. life is about those failures, those bad experiences... it makes the good moments even better. thank you for listening, good night to all

Ciao

About Me

hey welcome back :) sorry i won't be doing my post about love and madness today, i have a lot of work and its going to take a while to write that one so, i will be posting that one on saturday. as for today and friday, i will still post blogs but not about that particular topic. todays topic since i have little time to spare will just be a little list about me, and what i like and stuff like that.

So im 17 years old, and i have been playing soccer since i was 6... so thats like, 11 years now :D Also, i have been playing guitar (casually mind you) since i was 8... so almost 10 years of that :)
I did Karate from when i was 8 to when i was 13.. and achieved brown belt (2nd highest belt, behind black) and won many tournaments, or got 2nd place. i quit because my sensei really wasn't teaching me much anymore. it was a great experience though, and really kept me in peak physical condition along with soccer. speaking of soccer, i have won 5 Most Valuable Player Trophies, and many other first and second place trophies. A lot of these are from select.
I also played on the gr.8 basketball team and we ended up winning it all:) I wasn't nearly as good as the other guys on my team, but coach said i was good for keeping the ball in their end, getting in the other teams face and playing defense... so i guess that's why they kept me around :P
My goal for careers in my future, is to work in the sports industry..particularly sports management. whether that would be an agent for a NHL player, or even my ultimate goal of becoming a General Manager (woo!). honestly, as long as i am doing something with sports im going to be happy. my backup is being a personal trainer, as fitness is a big part of my life, and i want it to be a big part of other peoples lives as well.
Music is a huge part of my life. my favourite band of all time, and this is also the band i would consider to be "my band" because im the only person i know who really likes them, is Linkin Park. Ive been a LP faithful since 2000, and love everything they put out. In my opinion, they are one of the few great bands of the new generation. Some other groups i like are Killswitch Engage, Foo Fighers, Shinedown, Rise Against, Korn, Disturbed, Guns and Roses, Metallica, KISS, Journey, Billy Talent, Bullet for my Valentine, Avenged Sevenfold, ACDC, Nirvana... the list goes on.
I don't really like talking about myself though, especially to people i don't know. People can say things and though they are true, it doesn't mean you truly know that person now. its not like you can come up to me, thinking were friends because we both like Linkin Park... though that would definitely be a great common interest. To me, you really have to spend time with a person, dig deep. find out who they really are deep down inside. through this blog, you may get to know me a little bit more. but unless you actually come up and talk to me, and take the time to get to know me and become friends with me(im very friendly)... don't ridicule me, don't judge me, don't think you know me. YOU DON'T KNOW ME MAN!!! haha sounds so cliche, but you know what im getting at here. the fact is, talking about yourself highly like i kind of just did throughout this blog, gives the impression that your confident, and you think your awesome. that or you are looking for some compliments or a response in general. However, I myself, do not think highly of myself at all. you could even say my self esteem sucks...a lot. this blogs purpose is just for some background knowledge of me and though it is not much... somethings better than nothing right? like, i can barely talk to girls...ever. what does that say about me? exactly... pathetic am i right?
well that's all for today, sorry because it's not the most interesting blog ever, but i was going to do something like this eventually, and since it doesn't take much time, and i don't have much time today, i felt that the timing was right.
Todays song of the day, is from a group i mentioned above called Shinedown. I really started listening to this band after their album "The Sound of Madness" came out, and thats where this song comes from. the song's called "Devour" and i would just like to say that this group does have a lot to offer, so i recommend it.

Shinedown "Devour" off  the album "The Sound of Madness"

as always, remember to compliment someone! hope the rest of today is good for all of you.
So Long :)

Sick-Dating

Welcome back people. Today's going to be a bit more laid back, im not feeling to great ( I got really sick last night) and i just want to relax and feel better. so im just going to ask a simple question
for the question, im am going to ask if you date people based on what you hear of them, or how they look, or what they do. Now i know that this question is very broad, and I know almost everyone will say that they date people for "Who they are" but i find this to be the furthest from the truth a lot of the times. when people initially start dating anyways, or when people are like "would you date him/her" and you respond a certain way.
I know people say they date people for who they are, or they judge them for who they are, but i know this isn't completely true. ask yourself this, why do popular kids only date popular kids ?( I know there are exceptions but its the concept) and why do outcasts date other outcasts? is it because of who they are? or is it because of image and what everyone else thinks of them... i find the latter to be more true.
Heres a hypothetical situation, say there is this beautiful blonde popular girl (generic) and she could be looking for a guy who is really nice and always there for her and stuff. now she goes and dates this other popular, better looking guy who gets drunk all the time, doesn't do well in school, isn't very thoughtful or caring.. and lets be honest... really only wants to get in her pants. why would ANYONE date anyone like that? ok now lets take that same beautiful girl and say she meets this less popular, average joe. he doesn't look as good, and a lot of people don't know him very well except for his close group of friends. she always pictured this guy to be awkward. now she starts talking to him one day, and finds out that hes really funny, smart , caring, everything she wants. but what are the odds of a beautiful popular girl dating a guy like that? who's image isn't nearly as complete as the guy before? very. very slim. this is what is wrong with society, and there isn't much we can do to change it unfortunately. there will always be the less popular, not as good looking people who are denied opportunities because of their image.
Its truly not fair.
actually, we were reading an essay today in english class that related to this. it was about how at this university this football team won the championship (again) and they received an incredible amount of praise and honors. while there was 3 other teams ( debate team, academics triathlon team, and another team that i can't bring myself to remember, but it wasn't a mainstream team) who all won their respective events as well, including the debate team which won the universities first EVER 1st place debate prize. and these teams barely received any recognition.
again... just wrong
now, outcasts only date outcasts for basically the same reason( again, this is a generalization, i know there are exceptions). they can only talk to the other gender of the same cast as them, because that's all they feel they can talk to and build relationships. much of this has to do with self esteem, thinking that they simply can't talk to someone more popular because they think they are ugly, or stupid, or nerdy, or whatever. they think that its impossible.
THIS IS FUCKED UP
there, i said it. from the get go, we are categorizing people based on image, and not who they are. and from this we are limiting ourselves to who we talk to, who we become friends with(and stay friends with) and who we date. doesn't that sound.... really stupid?
 all im really trying to say here is, don't judge people based on what you hear of them, or what their image is or their popularity. If your popular.. WHO CARES! talk to someone who isn't! it doesn't matter! they may become a great friend or even a boy/girlfriend, who cares way more about you than that other slug. and you know what, i bet you will make many more friends by doing this.
wow, that rant turned out to be a lot longer than i thought it was, i guess i still got some fight left in me. thats all for that subject though. today, i was walking out to the bus stop on the way to school and i saw some teenager, holding a baby, and smoking. that really made me think... whats happening to us? it really creeped me out.
Did you remember to compliment someone? i sure hope so, and please continue to do so. it really helps! make someones day so they can make yours.
thats all for now people. I got tonight to chill and recover from this sickness, then im off to school tomorrow to start work again. thank god for no homework, i would have done a shitty job on it tonight :P
I Highly recommend that people go and read my friends blog. hes the one who got me into this, and hes been a brother of mine since elementary school. his blogs are very insightful and interesting, here a link i encourage you to go to it! 
http://jimmysnightmare.blogspot.com/
and i also encourage you to go to my other friends blog, mike. hes been a great friend of mine for a while now, and like jimmy, his blogs are insightful and a good read any time. go check er out!
http://doireallyneedanaddress.blogspot.com/
and right before i leave, todays song of the day comes from the Guns and Roses Album "Chinese Democracy". first of all, this album. is incredible. one of their best in my opinion. this song is called "Madagascar". i cant describe this songs impact on me.. its astounding. heres the link, just copy and paste into the browser... or look for the song on youtube. maybe i can find a way to get a youtube player right in here. oh well for now here it is, and i highly recommend this album to everyone.

thats all she wrote people, I thank you very much for the people who are reading this i really appreciate every single person who reads my blogs:)  Good day to you all!