Stitched in this skin

Hey

Have you ever felt like you are stuck in your skin? Like you don't belong in the body you are in? Like somehow, you ended up in the wrong place? Like you are limited to what everyone see's you to be? Like you can't break free? Like your stitched in your own skin?
I feel like we are all stuck in our own skin, for better or for worse. Not literally, that's just obvious. But the concept of being stuck in a foreign body, feeling like you are on the outside looking in... it's intriguing.

In most cases, Like sticks with Like. Think about it... every group is usually very similar, and has similar and contrasting values that work perfectly together. Or in a more literal approach... have you ever seen an unattractive popular kid? Unattractive sticks with non-popular, while Attractive sticks with popular. It's a dreary way of looking at it, but it makes sense for the most part. Of course, there is always the anomaly. So in a way our skin, as in what other people see of us, really sets limits on what is possible. Unattractive movie star? Almost never. I am a strong believer in thinking that anything is possible, but looking at this concept my thoughts on this are starting to change.
Another example. Think of a presentation. One person could have less information and value in their presentation, but the actual presenting of the presentation is really good. Then another person could have more information, more value, but presented worse. Presentation is everything. Ever heard of dress for success? Yeah... that's exactly what I am talking about.

So in a way, we are all set and doomed with our fate from the start. We are all stitched in our skin. Sometimes, I do things just because I want to do something that goes against what other people would think I would do. Something out of the ordinary. I want to break out of this fucking skin. Its bringing me down. People look at me, and they don't see who I really am, And because of this I don't act like who I really am, because I am trying to act to impress or to try to act like who I am, but instead of just being myself, I act myself. It's demeaning to everyone. Everyone deserves to be themselves, and everyone deserves to experience everyone else being their true self. But that just won't happen, not now, not today. Probably never will... such is the curse of humanity. Trying to impress, when what will really impress is not trying to impress but just being you.

Another point... here in Canada we are extremely privileged; United States too. I don't want to feel fucking privileged. I want to earn my privilege, I want to experience life to the fullest, not the way it is now. Not having everything put in front of my fucking face. I want to earn it. When a blackout happens (K.W kids know), society comes to a standstill. What will I do? Well the T.V won't work, the computer won't work, the internet won't work, so what I can do is go on my phone and use all of that which im missing. I don't know about everyone else, but I miss the simplicity of things... I want to go outside and play a sport, I want to skate on the pond in my backyard, I want to play around with my dog, I want to play guitar and learn new songs. We all know that's not going to happen though. During most blackouts, I spent most of my time on my phone, using the internet and social networks. Actually recently I used the bow-flex and finished my workout goal for the week, which I am pretty stoked about. But in general, I miss simplistic things. Maybe you know what I mean. Maybe you don't.

Well that is it for now. I hope you enjoyed my improved grammar from this blog and I think the last as well. What I am trying to do is slowly make this blog more professional, in my terms that is. Grammar being one of them.
And I hope you enjoyed this blog as well, It was more focused on just one thing. Another thing I want to work on. Please give me some feedback, as I take every bit of it and try to work it into my next post.

Song of the day: Lead Sails (And a Paper Anchor) by Atreyu
I'm starting to get into this band, I really like their style. I hope you do too.
Atreyu: Lead Sails (And a Paper Anchor) off their album Lead Sails and Paper Anchor

Whoa look what I did!!!
edit: Doing this for every song I have posted... this is going to take a while, but look back at previous posts to hear some of these songs if you wish. I might re-post some songs because of this.

Soon there will be something different for song of the day. I hope you will enjoy it, never done something like this before. I've already spent hours on it, recording. Maybe it will pay off, maybe

Maybe some day this will all pay off....
Some day
Some day ...

Welcome to the Universe

Hey how is everyone doing? Hopefully everyone is feeling good and having a good day.
K. So here's what is going to happen today. No apologizing, no putting myself or this blog down. None of that. I'm done with that. From now on, it's just thoughts straight from my mind.

Here's something that I don't get. Why do guys have to initiate the conversation with girls every time... why can't girls start the conversation and show some interest in us for a change right guys? Not that I don't like initiating the conversation, because if I have interest i will demonstrate it through conversation... but sometimes it would be nice if girls could talk to us first. Who said that its a rule that guys must initiate the conversation and show the interest? This is script theory at its finest... for those who don't know what Script theory is... well it is what it sounds like. Society makes us all follow a pre-set script that we all try our best to follow... such as guys asking girls out and not the other way around. I think it would be pretty cool if sometimes people would step outside this societal box and just... break out or something. Lets be the generation to re-write history... to make history. not fucking repeat it... we are all better than that.

So last night... I ended up staying up and looking at the stars until about 2 am... it's incredible how fast time goes by for me sometimes... it felt like 20 minutes maybe. It really got me thinking about a lot of things... a lot of things i won't mention on this blog for personal reasons of course but there was a couple of interesting things that i pondered last night... and here are some of them. If i said all of them we would be here all night... kind of like the last post. More will be mentioned and talked about in upcoming posts. But for now... lets talk about plastic
Plastic.. who the fuck thought that was a good idea? It's a man-made product... does not occur naturally... and is bad no matter how you put it. It's going to harm anything and everything it is associated with... nature.... us... animals.... you name it. It's depleting our earths precious resources... then being used usually only once or twice (lets say a plastic sandwich bag) and then is tossed into the environment... fucks up the environment releasing all sorts of toxins and chemicals and polluting our air even more.... and knowing all of this we still continue to do this. It's a puzzle; this plastic business.
Also on a side note... plastic surgery?! Why would you want that in your body... I don't know. Look... if you think you are ugly... chances are other people will think that you are less attractive than you really are. Radiate confidence, think and know that your beautiful and awesome... your going to look a bajillion times better than you did if you think your ugly. Radiate confidence and that in turn will radiate attractiveness imo. And on that point... no one is ugly. No one. Why we even judge and take looks so seriously is a myth to me. We are all beautiful. Fuck looks. Who cares? You are probably an awesome person so why does it matter? Yea... very general this statement but we all have to try our best to live by this. At least try. You can find beauty in everyone. Sometimes beauty is more than just skin deep. The best kind of beauty is the kind you can't see. That's why people close their eyes for the best things in life...when they dream... or kiss.......................................................... or sneeze. It's the best. Ever see a sneeze slo-mo? Fantastic. I think its brilliant that it even looks like that. Gross to a lot of people... and rightfully so I think its gross to a degree as well. But its awesome to me as well... oh tony why are you so weird :)
Prime example of this beauty being more than skin deep though... is a pug. You know... the dog?




Yea this little guy... look at all the wrinkles and the rolls on his face... I think its the best thing ever :) It can make anyone smile any day. Same with a lot of dogs. Dogs just see the best in everyone... we got to be more like dogs in terms of  toning it down a notch. See people for who they are and not what they look like. Unconditional, true love.

Man's best friend.. dogs are the best.

Also, random fact I thought was awesome... the iris in your eye will stay the same throughout your entire life. Pretty cool!


Also, just an update.... I'm going to try to record a video of me playing the song of the day on my guitar in the coming weeks... most likely march break. It takes time to learn a song, and march break would be a great time to experiment with this because it will give me plenty of time to record, edit, and finalize. But for now, I hope you enjoy this song of the day.

Song of the day today, by Trivium. A bit heavier than some of the most recent stuff I have been posting, but I listen to a very wide variety of music. Like a lot of it, and respect it all, and I hope maybe I can expand your music horizons as well :)
Song is called Down from the Sky

Trivium: "Down from the Sky" off their album Shogun

Thanks for reading another post! Remember to compliment people on something random. Probably will make their day.. lets all make everybody's day a little bit easier to handle... who's with me?
See you all again soon.

Ciao